โ€œYour kids are spoiledโ€

This has been levelled at me a few times by various people. Although I shouldn’t have to justify my parenting style I find that I bite every time. I explain about the educational toys, the fun toys and the outside toys, the huge craft unit the autism and the interests we have and usually people say “oh ok. That makes sense”. However a couple of people will not let it go. They know the situation but insist on telling me how great a parent their friend/relative is. How structured bed times are. How it’s one toy out at a time. How before they get new toys they have to get rid of others. How the parents are in control and telling me “you need to do (insert helpful comment here)”. I’ve taken to avoiding these people now as they obviously aren’t listening to me and have no understanding that works for one family doesn’t work for others.

The latest was going on holiday with the 2 little ones and leaving Max at home with his nana. “That’s so cruel. How can you leave him out”. I didn’t take him because he wouldn’t have liked it. After being his mum for 24 years I kinda know what he likes. That’s why we’ve booked a holiday for him with us and no little ones. A weekend away where it’s all about him. I would love to have a family holiday and we are working towards that but it’s not an option yet for a variety of reasons. It didn’t stop the comments until I said quite forcefully that none of my children get left out and we do things differently but fairly. That person hasn’t spoken to me since.

The garden is full of toys. Swing, trampoline, see saw, cars and ride on toys, sand pit-you get the picture. Between them the youngest have had ten birthdays between them and they get presents off relatives, so I think I only bought the slide as a non present. The rest were gifts from others or birthday gifts. They love the garden and can burn off energy in a safe environment. Doesn’t mean we don’t take them to the park or for walks, or for tree climbing or anything else.

The house is like a toy store but again they have Christmas and birthdays and I’m not going to get rid of things they still play with to make room. Eventually they will grow out of everything and then I will sadly get rid of it and have a grown up house ๐Ÿ˜•.

We have a good range of toys. Stuff recommended by OT like bead threading, traditional toys like wooden blocks, musical instruments, duplo, stickle bricks, Lego. All to help with creativity and building and fine motor skills. Our craft section is always being replenished as Popples is always making something or school have asked us to make things or Oliver is into creating 100 kites or go-jetter badges or whatever is his current fad. They have a tablet each too, where they have a range of games educational to fun. We have a dress up rack, princess dresses that have been given us, doctor set and pj masks. Helps with role play.

I feel I have made my point about stuff we have and also realised I’ve justified myself again! I don’t buy my kids stuff so I don’t have to play with them. I play with them all the time. I was Luna girl for three hours the other day trying to catch owlette, although we had a break to look at a bee close up and talk about it’s hairy legs. I’ve played play doh all morning “no oliver don’t eat the play doh”, I can build a passable stickle brick train, I am a good patient even though the doctors are rough and have no bedside manner. But then I get “them kids are so demanding, they should be able to play by themselves” why? Yes my house isn’t spotless, my grass isn’t always mown when it should be, yes we all have grass stains in our clothes where we’ve wrestled. I lost a few crops with the “help” I got.

Apparently my kids rule the roost. He’d sleep if I bothered getting him into a routine. Oh thanks for that, I’ve never tried a routine ๐Ÿ™„. “People have kids and a job and still manage everything ” good for them. “She needs telling no” does she? Does a four year old really need to hear that mummy can’t play because I’m cleaning?

They are only young for a little while so why shouldn’t I enjoy it? My husband doesn’t care, he knows the jobs get done at some point. As long as the house is still standing, he’s pretty easy going. So yes I spoil my kids. If spoiling means playing with them and reading with them and educating them. I think it’ll be a very sad day when I’m banished from the games. I wonder why people feel like they can make comments about how other families are. I mean we aren’t impacting on them so what does it matter if I’m running around doing my evil laugh? It makes the kids happy, and that’s good enough for me. I don’t want them to grow up thinking mummy never had time for them.

Oh and it’s not all store bought toys. We got a huge cardboard box and it was a boat, a car, a fire engine, a jail, a present, a tortoise and a rocket. We make tents from sheets. I think I have the best “job” in the world.

Sorry for ranting but it’s just really needled me, the judgement.

Xx

Butlins Skegness

We decided to have a holiday with the little ones and everyone said Butlins was worth a try as they had got so much out of it. So we booked and paid monthly for a gold apartment and the dining plan. We also paid an extra ยฃ15 for a ground floor apartment. Who needs the hassle of stopping another child trying to jump from a balcony (Max tried it in Florida)

I can see the appeal of Butlins. There’s a beach, small fairground, soft play and parks, food, shows and a water park all on site. However, once you get into the centre it’s very busy, there’s pound rides everywhere, lights, noise and an amusement arcade in the main pavilion. Not exactly brilliant for Oliver-total overload. He ran. A lot. We took turns chasing him whilst the other looked after Popples. Meal times were not a family affair. Day two I drove to the supermarket to get food in for breakfast and for Oliver and some Peroni for me and the hubs. I sent him for breakfasts with Popples because it was paid for, he eats more and I’m not too bothered about breakfast. It saved the morning stress of trying to keep Olly occupied whilst we tried to eat.

The activities we did were fun. The beach was a big hit, he was straight into the sea laughing and splashing up to his armpits. I built castles with Popples as she is more wary of water although I did get her in for a paddle. The fairground has a section for under 150cm so they could go on rides by themselves which they loved and it was included in the holiday price.

The water park had a selection of pools and water slides. We went on one of them and the kids actually queued no problem for it. Soft play killed a couple hours. The climbing frames killed another hour. We didn’t get to any shows. We ate in shifts. We hardly slept, a new place with all those things to do hyped them both up. I slept in “the girls room” as it was named by the youngest. Hubs and Olly slept in the double bed. At least we didn’t have to listen to the snoring!

Because Oliver didn’t eat much for two days we decided to go to the Italian on site. Not nice and cost a chunk. The main meals on the dining plan were passable, just, puddings were lovely though. We had taken stickle bricks and dvds for them which settled him a little in our apartment. Bed time was another challenge. She wandered in and out needing the toilet (fifty times an hour ๐Ÿ™„), he tried climbing out of the bedroom window. He wouldn’t go in the shower, couldn’t have bathroom light on as it was an extractor fan and the noise bothered him. Thankfully he couldn’t reach the security chain on the door or that would have been someone on duty all night.

It’s nothing we didn’t expect although I did think they’d be tired from the days exertions and sleep a bit more. We didn’t really see much of each other. We didn’t get any relaxing time. Before we went we talked about it and accepted that it was the kids holiday and to not expect too much and I think it helped keep our stress levels down. Instead of losing it at dinner I took him out for a walk while dad and sister finished tea. The next day he did the same for me.

The kids loved it. We made it about them telling Popples she could do what she wanted, giving her options and telling her that if she didn’t like it she didn’t have to do it. She cried when we went swimming but we had made the plan where if she didn’t like it I’d take her to do something else and we’d meet up later (very scared of big water) and told her that it was up to her to tell me if she didn’t like it. No worries once she got in and saw it only came up to her knees in the baby pool. She went on the big slide with us too. Her confidence grew because she was in charge wherever we could let her.

Butlins has more on offer but not for us. Climbing walls and stuff were not appropriate for us. Golf wasn’t either. So I can see why people love it and go back time and again but I think it’ll be a while if we go back. If we do at all. The request for next year is Peppa Pig World. She was only a baby when we took Oliver so we are considering it.

I think expecting so little and having strategies in place helped us get in the right mind set. We made some amazing memories. I took her on her first grown up fairground ride and got to see her face filled with joy and hear her laughter. I got to see my son laughing and splashing his dad in a very cold sea. I got to eat as many puddings as I wanted. I got to see my children squeeze everything they could out of family time. They loved it. And because they loved it, it was worth the no sleep, no relaxation, running around keeping him safe and every penny we spent.

Because she didn’t get to see a show we are taking her to the theatre tomorrow.

Butlins by the sea – ticks a lot of boxes but for a family like ours doesn’t tick quite enough…… yet.

Xx

Itโ€™s coming home! (Hopefully)

Normally around this time, I’m settled with the tennis. Every year I become zombie like, grunting responses to questions unless they are about Wimbledon. This year it is different. The World Cup is on and it takes precedence because it’s only on every four years so I’ve graciously allowed the husband to set the tv schedule. See how I’m getting to grips with this compromise stuff ๐Ÿ˜‚

I always support Portugal. I always have. I’ve even got a couple of football tops to wear on the occasions they play. My husband, being part Italian usually supports them. They didn’t qualify this year though so he supported England from the start, even has a pound on it in a family bet! Lots of the big teams didn’t qualify this year or have gone home early, including my beloved Portugal so I got on board with supporting our team. I will always support home nations anyway alongside my own team, except in rugby where I go for Scotland due to my heritage. To be honest though I went off England after linekar’s era as the later England line up seemed to me to act like they were owed it and had an arrogance I didn’t like.

This team, however, have come out playing their socks off, knowing they have to earn it, knowing there’s no such thing as a “sure thing”. Mr Southgate has a team that seem disciplined in the face of some really dodgy players (Colombia) and are hungry for victory. I am not a football buff, full of knowledge; I mean I used to go to Burnden Park to watch Bolton wanderers, this is just my ramblings about this World Cup.

I was gripped by the penalty shoot out, we don’t have a great history in that department. And yesterday they won outright. No extra time, no penalties (I don’t think my nerves could take another one of those!) and great goalkeeping. My husband and son in law were screaming at the tv when sterling(?) missed two open goals. I missed the first goal dealing with Oliver, but it was such a good atmosphere.

The streets were silent when the match was on. People who don’t watch football were watching. People were hugging strangers at the end. And this was so nice to see. Our country is so divided at the moment with Brexit, Trumps planned visit, the continued squeeze on incomes etc so it was so nice to see our country united on something. It was nice to see people happy and together. No barriers, everyone wanting the same outcome. (I say everyone knowing it’s not literally everyone)

Even if it doesn’t come home I think we can be proud of the England team. They’ve done so well and conducted themselves with dignity and humility. Now we wait to see what Wednesday brings. Up against Croatia I think which won’t be easy. Good luck England!

The biggest question remains though, which World Cup song is better? I believe it’s world in motion but my husband thinks it’s three lions (it’s coming home). Obviously I’m right ๐Ÿ˜‰

Xx

Food banks and period poverty

I know that in England the use of food banks has gone through the roof, even for working families. Wage freezes, high rents and increase in food and utilities costs have really squeezed families. In our church we provide porch boxes and our family contributes when we can as both me and the husband have been poor, so we like to give back where we can. There are baskets in supermarkets where you can leave contributions too. As well as food we have contributed toiletries like shampoo, toothpaste and deodorant. One thing we have never contributed or even thought about until today is sanitary products. I don’t know why. I suppose I assumed people would buy necessities and a see that as a necessity. But then so is food. I don’t really know what I was thinking.

Today I was watching tv and an advert came on for Always sanitary products. It was talking about the importance of school and at the end it did that “buy our products and we will contribute to period poverty so girls don’t miss school” thing. It’s always bothered me that products are taxed because they are “luxury products”, I kid you not. We obviously choose to give in to this need to have periods so have to pay tax! Or are we expected to go back to the days of monthly rags that are washed each time and so hygienic?

I am really bothered by my own ignorance though. How could I, as a woman, not be thinking about what other women need? It never occurred to buy those kind of toiletries but I know about the poverty levels in this country. I know kids are going to school hungry. I know the liberals pushed successfully for free meals for all kids up to year 2 so they at least got one hot meal a day. I know the teachers who take in extra food to feed the ones they know are in dire straits. Now I know about period poverty too. And now I can do something about it.

How can a developed country like ours find money for weapons, wars, bailing out banks, new railways we don’t need, paying to keep the government propped up, yet we can’t pay a living wage? Homelessness is growing, there are no rent controls which puts more families at risk. Working families using food banks. Girls missing schools because they have no money for a tampon. How can this be happening in this day and age. I wonder when the first workhouse will be reopened. Even with all the advances in technology and medicine etc I feel we are going backwards as a nation. The rich/poor divide is huge and just seems to be getting bigger. Those in charge should be ashamed, but they never are. It isn’t them deciding if heat is more important than food this week.

Xx

DLA The final

As you may know we have been fighting the DWP in regards to Oliver’s disability. They downgraded him, we disagreed. We appealed, they dismissed us. We filed for tribunal and got letter of support from our doctor and I dug out all relevant information from his vast file. We sent off photocopies of prescriptions, the letter, a further explanation in what we have tried, an explanation of his presentation of autism, EHC’s ……in short everything!

Our appeal was accepted by the court and we were told to await a date and information on court choices closer to us. We decided that we would go wherever gave us a date first.

Today I received a letter from the DWP stating they have changed their minds and have awarded Oliver the high rate of care component and low rate of mobility. So we don’t have to go to tribunal now.

From speaking to some parents about this I found that a lot of ASD kids had been downgraded in the dla scheme and the parents were just too exhausted to fight anymore. Is that what they are relying on? Parents not having the energy to fight to save the government a few quid? They have the money for weapons and HS2 which we don’t need but not the money for the vulnerable in society. I don’t blame the parents, God knows I felt like giving up, we have enough to do without having to fight for every last thing our children need but it was the principle of the thing. How can someone who has no knowledge decide on my child’s disability?

For us we would have taken it all the way with the risk of losing. It was important to have our voice heard but it was more important to have Oliver’s voice heard, the challenges he faces daily, the help he needs to become all he can be. I choose which battles to fight now, there are too many to take them all on and I can’t physically or mentally fight them all. I triage them; what he absolutely needs, what he’d like, what we’d like if we didn’t know about the current climate of cutbacks. I’ll probably get it wrong at some point, maybe already have. But I try my hardest every day for him and he tries even harder than me.

Xx

Eurovision.

Tonight is a very exciting time. It’s Eurovision!!! I know a lot of people think it’s cheesy and fixed to a degree with friendly countries giving each other the coveted 12 points but as a viewer I don’t really care.

It’s been ages since we won. It’s claimed to be political but considering the songs we’ve submitted recently I think it’s more the poor quality that has let us down. This years is no exception in my opinion. It’s a nothing song.

I love the spirit of Eurovision. It’s all of Europe coming together to celebrate music (ha!) and each other’s culture and it’s fabulous to see so much love and happiness instead of the hatred and bickering we see on the news. With Brexit, there are new calls to withdraw from the competition as we put a lot of money into it, but I think there would be very glittery riots if that happened. There are Eurovision parties going on everywhere, drinking games, food consumed, score cards printed and everyone is suddenly an expert on what constitutes a good entry. For me it’s a performance with pyrotechnics, a fist of power, wind machines and traditional dress. Oh and a really catchy song. I voted for a song entitled “we are the winners” a few years ago. It was simple but brilliant. I’d post a link but I’m not sure if it’s allowed or even how to do it. I usually support Azerbaijan but they’ve been knocked out so I’m thinking Moldova this year.

My husband never watched Eurovision til he met me and his choice for that Saturday was seeing me and watching Eurovision or not seeing me and he chose the former. And to show he knew how much it meant to me, he made flags of every country who entered and made bunting out of them. We still have them, 10 years on. Sometimes we make national dishes for the evening but this year we are having a curry and mojitos. It’s been a busy time so it’s a night for chilling. Eldest and her husband coming round too. I’ve told her if she goes into labour tonight she’ll be going into hospital on her own til Eurovision is finished ๐Ÿ˜‚.

The controversy was when Australia were somehow allowed to enter, something to do with broadcasting companies. I think we were jealous they did better than us but everyone loves Australia!

If you haven’t watched it, you should give it a go. It’s a fun night for most of Europe and I think with new televisions there’s an option to put on song lyrics so you can sing along.

Now I must go make my score cards. Happy Eurovision day!

Xx

Scarlet fever and antibiotics

Oliver had his birthday recently. He woke up with a red cheek and a cold. Thankfully it didn’t ruin his day, he opened presents, opened his cards and was quite social. By the time of birthday tea his other cheek was red. We put it down to sugar or an eczema flare up as he didn’t have a temperature and showed no other signs.

As he seemed fine I sent him to school as normal, explaining to the teacher about his lack of temperature but with the proviso they called if he showed any deterioration. He was fine at school, didn’t eat much but that’s not unusual. He refused his dinner, stopped drinking and went to bed and to sleep on his own! He slept through. The alarm bells were ringing when I woke at six and he was still asleep.

Rash had spread to his arms, got an emergency appointment as it seems scarlet fever and slap cheek is going around. The doctor checked him over and debated between the two possible diagnosis. After discussing his temperature which was over 38 last night and his reluctance to put anything in his mouth he decided to treat for scarlet fever. The lack of eating and drinking suggesting sore throat. The fact he had taken calpol the night before with no fight meant he felt rough. He had chicken pox a couple of weeks ago so we have been given antibiotics. Four times a day for ten days of the most disgusting medicine possible. As you can imagine, I’m thrilled.

Oliver does not like medicine. Took me months and many bottles to get him to take liquid paracetamol. Now I present him with this stuff. He understands “sore” and he knows when he has calpol he feels better. I think he thinks I’m trying to poison him with this stuff. I’ve put it in juice, he refuses to drink. I try to bribe with goodies if he takes it. I even resorted to pin him down and try to make him swallow but failed. He’s never had antibiotics before. The rash is now everywhere. With him having just had the pox, I’m more concerned than I usually would be over this, there can be an increase in other things like pneumonia so I need to find a way to get this down him. Usually if it meant that he could fight it on his own but would stay off school then I’d go with that, as exhausting as that is. He can go to school 24 hours after starting antibiotics but that’s not the reason I need him to take them. I’m terrified of complications because he isn’t a healthy eater or sleeper and his immune system is not the best so he’s a prime candidate for complications.

How do you explain to him that this will make him better when it’s so vile? We are hardwired not to eat “yuk”. I’ll try some in yoghurt later and see how that goes but why can’t someone make medicine that doesn’t taste like crap? It would make my life a little bit easier. I’ve tried the mummy has some/Oliver has some, in the hopes of reassuring him but he looked at me like I was mad. It can’t be just us who have this problem. I’m tired of being the bad guy when I’m just trying to help but that seems to be par for the course in this family at least.

Xx